Pending Write-up: Learn Sumthin’ (Track 9)

Pending Write-up: Learn Sumthin’ (Track 9)

As you know (or don’t know), I attend York University and I have come to terms with that I probably will be going to school for the rest of my life.

As weird as it sounds I enjoy it.  Growing up my mother was to busy providing the basics for her children, such as food, clothes, shelter.  I for one can understand, that she did not have enough time to help with homework or be dedicated to our studies while having a demanding job.

School has provided me with a foundation for anything I want to learn about.  Ex. I took a Racial Minority literature class and learned about a woman who is now one of my favourite authors, Dionne Brand…But I digress…This song is about motherfuckers, and that is what they are!  Those people who continually talk about it rather than be about it!  We have all met them and I have seen that mind set rub off on people not a pretty sight!  That way of thinking is very deceptive and I have seen it ruin lives.

Also added the very talent pHoenix Pagliacci…It was a close call but we were able to add her verse in the track!

This song is dedicated to those talkers….LEARN SUMTHIN’

– Gardener

Pending Write-up: Carnival of Life (Track 5)

Pending Write-up: Carnival of Life (Track 5)

“No I don’t need no help” (Gardener).  “Carnival of Life” hits so close to home.  This track is extremely personal and I am very content with the final result.

 

This song embodies some of the craziness (emotionally) I’ve experienced.  Now me as a young dude I learned the hard way that the average person is full of shit and unfortunately for me I was very naïve and originally believed words that were said to me.

 

But so many people go through the puppy love stage right?  Your first love, it ends and you moved on…if it was only that easy!…..No, stop, whoa, I am no longer stuck on love for past relationships.  What I will admit is that I can still remember the sadness I felt, when shit broke down.  I’ve always been pretty good at remembering the emotionally high and low points of my life.  I have a ton of high points as a kid that still to this day put a smile on my face.

 

Back to the track though…Carnival of Life, which is produced by the homie Lone Monk, is a song where I spill my guts about a past relationship that was pretty important to me, at the time.  This relationship ended and I wasn’t happy with the way it went down.  So I took those feelings and added the concept of the carnival.  See a carnival has bright lights and appealing images to the eye.  But you mess around and have that cotton candy and chilli dog, then hop up on the teacups and vomit all over yourself!

 

That is what life can be sometimes a carnival..and you better hol’ on tight!

 

– Gardener

 

Pending Write-up: Bereavement Period (Track 4)

Pending Write-up: Bereavement Period (Track 4)

Bereavement: Grief is a multi-faceted response to loss, particularly to the loss of someone or something to which a bond was formed.

 

This intro sets the stage for the fore coming tracks.  This section contains my inner most thoughts about relationships, that are no longer the same or have ended.

 

Joe Budden in his track “Dear Diary” is quoted as

“See relationships are never a threat/Cause I’ll erase the history and act like we never met”.

 

The majority of my relationships fall under Joe’s sentiments.  I can honestly say only a few relationships caused me pain.  Not because I didn’t have a lot of them, but I was very careful with how much of myself I invested into them.

Think of your life as a building with revolving doors….people leave and enter all the time.  We have little control on keeping people in or out of the building.  All we can do is be ourself. Think about it, a building for the most part is a complete structure and unless you plan on doing renovations there really is no way to change it.  And even if you decide to change, if it’s not fast enough people may still leave while your in the middle of renovations.

 

There are only a few people that left my building that actually caused me pain.  These relationships are touched in this section of “Pending”.

 

– Gardener