It’s Been a Long Time I Shouldn’t Have Left You..

Almost 7 days in fact…..

I started summer school and I am already behind in my readings…AND IT IS ONLY THE FIRST WEEK -__-

I am not amused.  Anyways good news on the music front, I might have a pretty good performance opportunity in the next few weeks, stay tuned.

Other than that…oh wait…I dropped a new video here:  5 PM in Toronto check it out!

I got alot to write about, but I am going to hold off for now.  It’s quite late.

– Gardener

Birthdays Do Not Mean Much to Me?

Birthdays Do Not Mean Much to Me?

Is that weird?

A person close to me recently celebrated their birthday and one thing I remembered about myself is how little my own bornday means to me.

I don’t know if it is my distaste for “First World Traditions” or maybe just the fact I only remember having one birthday party as a child.

I definitely think it is the latter.  I mean how can one expect to care about something especially “birthdays” without developing some form of emotion attachment to it?

I would think the majority of adults that whole heartedly love celebrating birthdays is directly linked to their child hood and experience with birthdays.  As a child they learned to love birthdays due to the presents or special family events, that occurred on their birthdays .  I think most of us agree that children depending on their age mostly likely love birthdays because it is their chance to get presents or experience someone else birthday and witness them getting presents/participating in a birthday party celebration.  What kid wouldn’t like presents, for simply being born?

As an adult this attachment to birthdays later matures into some form of emotional attachment rather than all about gifts, it morphs into some sort of philsophical ideal.  This ideal is shaped depending on the person’s character or perspective on life.

Take me for example:

I think that because I never really had an attachment as a child, to birthdays.  There was no feeling to mature as I grew.  I remember as a child getting pretty used to not having a party or anything special happen and on the opposite spectrum I witnessed my classmates and friends all having these amazing parties.  I think over time I just turned off the anticipated excitement, of my own birthday, as a way to deal with being disappointed.

When I became an adult, who never celebrates my own and I have not figured out if this is an overall positive or negative.  Well I know a lot of people I have meet think its negative and sad.  You’d be surprise how many lectures I have received on being heartless, because I am not particularly fond of celebrating events.

I always thought Mr Scrooge McDuck was misunderstood!

– Gardener


On-line Dating…

On-line Dating…

“It’s taking over” (Akon Voice).

Lately I have began noticing how common dating online has become.  Not to say it was not popular in the past, it most likely was,  I just find that many of my close friends and co-workers are and have turned to the internet for love.  Unfortunately I just cannot seem to bring myself to set up a profile.

Firstly paying for any online dating site in my opinion is ridiculous having a computer match my likes/dislike to someone else is to much for me.  But it is a good way of ensuring that the participants are probably looking for a serious relationship?  I mean if you pay a dating site then get some one night sex aint that prostitution?  Hah! eHarmony pimping humans out!

I know what your saying…:Dwayne there are plenty of free dating sites”…true.  But let’s be honest Those are just full of thirsty dudes.  And I can’t send a message to a girl that doesn’t know me knowing she probably has over 100 messages in her inbox from other guys, sorry just can’t.  A female friend of mine had 164 unread messages from men all trying to sex/date/love etc.

Geeeezz nah no thanks…I’ll stick to looking at females in close proximity and never approaching them hah!

This is just a phenomena I will have to sit out.

What do you think yay or nay?

– Gardener